Am I Just Eating Because I'm Bored

So I have my final Ceramics project coming up. I've decided I want to do a series of multiples, slightly modifying each particular piece. There are three options I've decided I want to try to do, and I have a poll on the right of this blog that you guys can vote on whichever you think is the most interesting/effective/cool/etc.

In no particular order:

• Birds - The Phoenix is a Greek mythological creature (or Harry Potter, depending on your religion) that symbolizes rebirth, fire, the sun, reincarnation, etc. This would be a serious of numerous phoenix-like birds, hung by fishing wire, arranged to ascend upwards.
• Ladybugs - Often represents luck, prosperity, or just good fortune. This would just be a bunch of lady bugs sitting on top of a large leaf, perhaps a few trailing off of the leaf.
• Goldfish - Kamohoalii, the Hawaiian shark god, is said to swim around ships lost at sea and help guide them back to land. This is interesting to me because in Digimon, Gomamon has a move called Marching Fishes in which he summons lots of fish and they often form a net/raft to help the kids (Yeah I just made that reference). This would be a school of goldfish, also hanging from fishing wire, perhaps with one in the lead painted a different color to symbolize Kamohoalii. MAYBE I would add a boat or something above the school of fish, but I'm not sure yet. 

So those are three ideas I have. Any other ideas anyone might have, let me hear them, but also know I can't do a subject 'just because it looks cool'. I have to have some sort of meaning or inspiration behind it. If you guys could vote on the poll on which idea sounds the best I would greatly appreciate it.

Meanwhile I'm having social/emotional issues but I'm not going to talk about them because I've been taking them out on my art, which is convenient and nice. 

Deuces,

Peener

I promise

I'm not on some crazy "I'm so proud to be Canadian" kick. Today just HAPPENS to be the Canadian Thanksgiving, and I just SO HAPPENED to think of a funny Canadian joke the other day (That got TWO status shares. Go me) and I just HAPPEN to drinking Molson's Canadian and the song from 7th grade that my classmates wrong just SO HAPPENED to pop into my head. That was based on Canadians.

Canasian Pride indeed.

So I should be sad that I'm drinking beer, sitting at home alone playing Pokemon X. But I'm at home, drinking beer and playing Pokemon X. I'm goddamn ecstatic. Also I've been feverishly replaying these three songs:

• "Royals" by Lorde
• "Wake Me Up" by Avicci
• "Radioactive In The Dark" Fall Out Boy/Imagine Dragons remix.

Don't worry, I'll be sick of them in a few days.

So oh my God. So far Pokemon X has blown my mind. It's amazingly easy to trade/battle with friends online now (and random people across the globe!). The graphics are BEAUTIFUL. My only gripe is the always-on roller blades. As much as I love Jet Set Radio Future, just like in that game, it's frustrating trying to navigate with roller blades. 

• It's finally in 3D
• Character customization
• Mega Evolutions (Ahem, Digimon anyone?)
• You can sit on benches
• You get to ride a Rhyhorn
• You mom actually has a bedroom in the house you live in. 
• You can sit on benches
• No really. Benches.

I don't know why the last bit gets me so excited. Also, just the graphics and minor details make me giggle. When your character talks to someone tall, he/she looks up at them. When they talk to a little kid, THEY KNEEL DOWN AND PUT THEIR HANDS ON THEIR KNEES OH MY GOD IT'S SO CUTE I COULD VOMIT.

Also you get to pick a Kanto starter later in the game. And it's actually quite Kanto-Pokemon heavy, for you GenWunners.

When I get drunk I talk about Pokemon. Maybe I should stop blogging.

Happy Thanksgiving!

-Peener

We are vagabonds; we travel without seat belts on. We live this close to death

Hooray for obnoxiously long post titles that are lovely lyrics.

So trying to go to bed, my thoughts have dragged me through the emotions of anger, despair, sadness, and joy, all in about 45 minutes. I figured I should try to blog but I don't really want to talk about anything right now. So here's a silly thing that happened in class on Tuesday.

My professor is super adamant about not having cell phones in class. About an hour in, his phone goes off, and he begins to profusely apologize. Seeing it's (guessing) his wife, he answers it and this is how it goes:

"I'm in class. *pause* This better be important otherwise this is really horrible. *pause* Is the house on fire? *pause, then hangs up*

*Looks up at the class* "I think that was my 2 year old"

I don't know. It sounds stupid now in writing but it made me giggle in class.

Tomorrow I'm doing drunk kitchen with some cool kids. We're doing Grandma's sweet potato soup and also a green bean casserole. I'm excited. And hungry.

Stay foolish, kids.

-Peener

We have done the impossible, and that makes us mighty.

So I have 3D modeling homework to do and I should go to the studio so OF COURSE instead I'm going to a beer thing instead because I like to run away from my responsibilities.

I watched Serenity again last night. It ripped my heart out and shat on it. Like usual. I need to not go on tumblr and stuff too much. It starts to get me all mopey about romance and stuff. I'm not really jaded on that whole idea, but damn, we need to set our expectations lower. Maybe your perfect guy will keep asking you to pull his finger when he farts. Or blows beer bubbles. Or doesn't play video games (spoiler, not mine). But I'm sure the perfect S.O. is out there getting into some shenanigans. probably illegal. Like poaching.

This was a weird entry. I'm tried and my head hurts.

yay beer.

-Apinya

God it's good to be alive

So I found this webcomic that's 100% Pokemon humor.

I'm dead. Bye guys.

Rare Candy Treatment

That links to whatever random comic I was looking at.

This blog entry will be boring. I could rant about feelings and stuff, but no one really wants to read me bitch about myself. I have 3D Modeling homework, and I also need to make my way to the Ceramics studio at some point today. In all actuality I'll probably go do Ceramics for a few hours, then go to Ampa and Joe's for Oktoberfest/football and "do" 3D modeling homework there, since his computer is SO much better than mine.

I remember another imperfection of mine (from a few entries back) I have irrational bathroom phobias. It's a bit of a list of it's own, which is probably why I didn't include it before.

• I 99.9% of the time will never use a port-o-potty. Ever.
• The idea of peeing in the woods is terrifying.
• I always have to check behind the shower curtains before I use a toilet if they're closed. To make sure dead bodies are back there chilling (Looking at you, Kiss Kiss Bang Bang)
• If it permits, I will use the 3rd stall in a public restroom. If not, I will use the handicap stall. 
• If there is only one other person also in the public restroom, I will wait until they leave. 

Look I'm all neurotic about bathroom stuff but then I'm like 'hmm this expired in July 2012 but it still smells fine'. 

Broncos play the Cowboys today. I really wanna go fight someone in a bar. I probably could, just show up in my Jason Witten Jersey and smile. 

-Peener

THE WEEKEND IS HERE

So I've watched about six episodes of Doctor Who on my desktop while I'm playing Candy Crush/Farm Heroes Saga on my laptop and I'm wrapped up in my UT blanket because the heat doesn't work in my apartment yet but I'm eating ice cream because I eat my feelings and it's making me colder but I can't stop and this is my life now.

A run on sentence of my day after class.

I slept from about 5-7, made some soup and mac n cheese, and have been staring at some form of LED screen for 12+ hours. I'm not even mad. Although I feel I should bring my aloe plant in because it IS cold outside and it likes to be warm and sunny. It's so strange. With depression, sleep is like...50% of what I do. Sometimes it's so overwhelming just being conscious that you just want to sleep until it all goes away and you can just start over the next day. Sometimes I sleep to pass the time because I literally can't think of anything else I'd want to do. I'm so impatient, I guess.

Ugh. I better stop before I start making myself sad.

Dear BlogSpot

So the therapist is officially too expensive to go to per session. So now you are my therapist.

What do you do when you have had a best friend for 13+years, and you enjoy hanging out with them, but the things that they believe in and 'stand for' are so radically different from your own that you can barely tolerate them? I almost feel like I am obligated to be their friend just because we have been for so long. But everything from their choices in life to the beliefs that they hold are just so different (we used to be almost the same person) from my own that I can't stand them. I love them, with all of my heart, but damn near 50% of what comes out of their mouth just makes me roll my eyes. They're an adult, yes, but they haven't quite grown up.

When the person who preordered Pokemon X says that you haven't grown up yet, maaaaaaybe some things need to be reassessed.

I want them to grow up. I want them to become the wonderful person I know they can be. But they won't. It's like they refuse, and they are just stuck in this bubble. In the same bedroom for years, surrounded by the same people, for years. How can one grow and evolve if they are never forced to change?

Without order nothing can live. Without chaos, nothing can evolve.

By no means am I tooting my own horn as some superior human being because I've led a different life. For all I know, I am no more adult than them, I could just be a massive fuck up. And I have (see previous blog) been a massive fuck up before.

It's less a poisonous relation ship for me, and more just an annoyance. So what do I do.

-Peener

P.S. I got a courtesy call from Gamestop thanking me for preordering Pokemon X. :3 October 12 is sooo cloooooose.

I saw a field that grew perfection full of things you do.

I read a friend's list of the 'perfect girl' a few days ago. Not that I had interest to begin with, but I straight up bombed like....95% of his list. But I like to think I have some likable traits, but hardly do they make me someone's perfect girl.

• I am coming to terms that I might have a video game addiction. While I typically am able to withhold myself from buying a brand new game, I have spent at least $300 on gaming systems/games since July. I often prefer video games to people.
• I don't work out. I don't hate it, I just don't do it. I tried running and I almost died. Lifting weights around people in a public area gives me unofficial anxiety.
• I poop. Sorry.
• I don't believe in God. Now a lot of people will think this isn't a big deal, when some others will find this repulsive. I tried it for a bit. Didn't work out. But I am not lacking some spirituality in my life, Buddhism is pretty sweet.
• My clothing style is kind of hipster. Idk I like baggy shirts and stuff. I bought a sweater with the Union Jack on it and it is no doubt one of the best purchases of my life
• I procrastinate a lot. In fact I'm writing this blog instead of studying for my Art History test.
• My vocabulary is easily 30% swear words. They're just fucking words.
• Alcohol is my friend, but not my boss.
• I have some self destructive tendencies. Mostly emotional ones. I have this thing, where I go out and do what I want at that moment, and regret it later. Like...all the time. 
• I'm more of a cat person. Sorry again.
• You can tell I'm Canadian, because I apologize for just about everything. 

Now I guess I can try to recognize some ancient statues and what not. Got that off my chest.

Well that was embarrassing...

I just tried to go running in god knows how long. It was a short run. My legs aren't sore, but not even fifteen minutes in and there is still not enough oxygen in the world to keep me alive. I don't know if it's because I'd been sick the past few days or what, but it's evident that my lungs need some work. So glad I didn't try to go running at the gym, because I'd be ashamed. And I can't stop coughing now. Blegh.

My iPod also died mid run, and I can't find my charger cable. I am distressed. Also I may have already misplaced my key in my own apartment. So much for waking up and trying to make myself a better person. I thought it was a sign that I was up wide awake at 7:30 AM. NOPE. Might just be those pesky R.E.M. cycles or whatever.

I really am disappointed in how out of shape I've gotten. I was never really in shape to begin with, but I could run for at least an hour. I guess I should play GTA V to drown my sorrows. Or work on modeling stuff. I'm currently making a diesel-punk style aquarium (thanks Matt for the idea!) Basically the engine would run the pump-filter system for the fish, yada yada. We have two weeks to work on the project so hopefully I can make it look pretty good in that time slot, as well as work on the other 3D assignment we have, and work on whatever we decide to do with Capstone.

I really enjoy my 3D modeling class. Working on 3D is such a different experience. Coupled with my first 3D studio class (Ceramics), it's made it a pretty fun quarter. It's very convenient to be working 90% with 3D art. But damn, Maya is intimidating. There are so many tools you just kind of sit there with your jaw hanging open, like 'now what?'

Anyways, I find that these personal blog entries are less exciting than ones that I rant about a specific topic. But at least I got it off my chest.

No but really

Who is in Russia that reads my blog? I'm 100% curious, because I didn't think I knew anyone in Russia.