A Little Experiment

So I've deactivated my Facebook. So far, it's been okay, besides the occasional 'Oh man this thing on Tumblr is hilarious I'm going to post--oh....yeah.' Which that's alright, because people never really looked at stuff I posted anyways, or thought it was very funny. It's kind of liberating, I felt almost obligated to check Facebook for messages, etc. But everyone I need to keep in contact with either I have them on Skype or here, or they have my number. And now I won't get into fruitless arguments over stupid political stuff. PLUS I have more free time now (computer is not as exciting) so I get to do things like play Grand Theft Auto V and homework!

lol.

Anyways, two weeks left of school. Panicking a little for the job hunt. But one of my professors helped me out in pointing me in the right direction. A couple game companies are hiring for artists so I'm going to get on that. What's the worst that can happen, they'll tell me no?

Shitstorm

SO I've been reading a lot about this Phil(?) dude from Duck Dynasty that was like 'mens and womens not mens and mens' (give or take) and then A & E suspended him. Is it because he's Christian? No. What happened was an employer saw an employee publicly representing them and stating a sentiment that they felt would not go over well with the public, so they choice to suspend them. So what if the Duck Dynasty show completely stops airing? I promise you, those guys are not struggling financially. This is not a discrimination, this could possibly be a legitimate contract violation. It's not a 'freedom of speech' thing, and besides, you have freedom of speech, not freedom from consequences of said speech. If you worked for AT&T and when talking to a customer said 'Yeah but I totally love Satan and sacrificing lambs' they would be able to terminate you not because of your belief (besides, have you sacrificed a lamb before? It's DELICIOUS), but it's because you put that opinion out WHILE representing your employer, and they don't want that image. Tough shit.

Why are they rich again? Duck harmonicas?

Anyways, /endrant /startnewrant

My apartment complex is being demolished. I have until January 31st to evacuate. Which is you know, awesome, also right in the middle of my final and busiest quarter at DU. But the lease says they only need to give a 30 day notice for this sort of thing, and they technically gave me 42, so I'm sort of on my own finding a new place. Hooray.

Also this vacation back in Texas isn't quite what I was expecting. I'm still enjoying it, but it's full of it's own disappointments and let downs. I kind of can't wait to go back to Denver again.

My Perfect Man Summed Up in Lyrics

Okay not really. But these songs are so painfully romantic to me in their own ways. In no particular order

1. Ass Back Home - Gym Class Heroes feat. Neon "We put the 'us' in 'trust', baby."
2. After Midnight - Blink 182 "We'll stagger home after midnight; sleep arm and arm in the stairwell. We'll fall apart on the weekend; these nights go on and on and on."
3. 505 - The Arctic Monkeys "But I crumble completely when you cry."
4. Teenage Dream - Katy Perry "I finally found you: my missing puzzle piece."
5. There is - Boxcar Racer "Will you sleep tonight, or will you think of me?"
6. Hard to Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers "All I want is for you to be happy and take this moment to make you my family"
7. Dig - Incubus "Remind me that we'll always have each other when everything else is gone."
8. Ruling Me - Weezer "In the rain, in the sun, everybody needs someone."
9. Such Great Heights - The Postal Service "The freckles in our eyes our mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned."
10. Wounded - Third Eye Blind "I wanna kiss you and knock 'em down like we used to."
11. Cindy - Tammany Hall NYC "You listened when my voice was void of sound."
12. Gypsy - Lady Gaga "Bust the rearview mirror and fire up the jets because it's you and me."
13. The Saltwater Room - Owl City "So tell me darling do you wish we'd fall in love?"
14. Going Away to College - Blink 182 "This world's an ugly place, but you're so beautiful to me."
15. You and I- Lady Gaga "You taste like whiskey when you kiss me, oh, I'd give anything again to be your baby doll."
16. Bed-Shaped - Keane "You'll knock on my door, and off we'll go."
17. Here (In Your Arms) - Hellogoodbye "There's no where else I could be but here in your arms."

About the Blogger

ABOUT ME

► Name ➔ Apinya!
► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Perhaps?
► Are you single ➔ And alone. 
► Are you happy ➔ "yes"
► Are you Italian ➔ no
► Are you German ➔ no
► Are you Asian ➔ YES. AHAHAHAHAHh
► Are you angry? ➔ Is this an ethnicity
► Are you Irish ➔ no
► Are your parents still married ➔ yes

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ Canadaaaa
► Hair Color ➔ brown/varies
► Eye Color ➔ poop
► Birthday ➔ dec 13
► Mood ➔ not wearing pants
► Gender ➔ female
► Lefty or Righty ➔ righty
► Summer or winter ➔ winter
► Morning or afternoon ➔ either staying up until morning or afternoon/evening

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 
► Are you in love? With this donut. 
► Do you believe in love at first sight? ➔ OR SHOULD I WALK BY AGAIN? LOLOL*sobs*
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart? ➔ In middle school. If that counts.
► Are you afraid of commitments? ➔  Shits terrifying yo.► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ Matt couldn't get the machine to work so I gave him a hug because he looked sad. 
► Have you ever had a secret admirer? ➔ We're grown ups, they're called stalkers now.
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ What does that even mean?

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ Uh? Both? Lust I guess? idk.
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Sweet tea bitch!
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Cats. MEOW BITCH.
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ A few besties. We get stupid. 
► Television or internet ➔ Internet. Who watches television anymore? What am I a farmer?
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ Mountain Dew?
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ Wild Night Out. "Romantic Nights" seem silly.
► Day or night ➔ night
► IM or Phone ➔ I.M. 

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ Kind of?
► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔Both. Once all at the same time.
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ Like the big ones the size of a heart? HELL YEAH
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Digimon
► Prank called a store ➔ No actually
► Skipped school ➔ Lolololoololol
► Wanted to disappear ➔ I wish. 

TEN PREFERENCES 
► Smile or eyes ➔ Eyes. SMILE WITH YOUR EYES.
► Light or dark hair ➔ dark.
► Shorter or Taller ➔ Tall. It's not hard. I'm 5'1"
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ I'm attracted to intelligence?
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ relationship I s'pose► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ Funny and poor. 

ABOUT ME
► Last Phone Call ➔  My homie about pizza
► Last phone call you received ➔ My phone is too far away and I don't wanna get it.► Last person you hung out with ➔ Seester and her beef.
► Last thing you ate ➔ Dum-dum 
► Last thing you drank ➔ coffee
► Last site you went to ➔ Tumblr =P
► Last place you were ➔ At work. 

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along ➔ Sometimes. 
► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ Uh...maybe? It's not like drastically messed up but like everyone else I have my own issues?► Have you ever run away from home ➔ Nah never found a backpack big enough to carry my xbox and my teddy bear (actual child)► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ Well my mom yelled at me to leave so I left...but then I came back a few hours later so...

Lets talk about 'Facebook Games'

Your favorite nerdy asshole gamer girl is here with her normal dose of fart jokes, emotions, and cynical views on the world. I sort of dropped off for a bit as my finals came and ripped me a new asshole.

Today I'm tackling Facebook Games. Why do we hate them so much? It's like everyone except for a select few utterly despise them. They are:

1. People with smartPhones who take long poops
2. Middle aged people on Facebook
3. Children

There's probably more but I think I've bastardized those stereotypical ones enough. But what is the stigma against the game that we hate so much? I'll try to break it down.

- Posting and announcing gameplay on your feed
- Inviting Friends to play to enhance gameplay

- Using real money to add to game play

1. Posting and Announcing on your Feed

I don't give a shit what your cow crapped out on Farmville 2 (spoilers: it's manure. Hopefully. Also does Farmville 2 harvest manure?) One of the worst things about games on Facebook is their constant desire to announce every little thing you've achieved in game. Frankie beat level 7 on Fuckfest Saga! Margaret spun straw into gold on FarmHouseCityLandTown! Sarah just passed Jimmy in the most embarrassingly brutal defeat possible on BubblePuzzleGame. Why does this game have the need to shout from the rooftops every little achievement? Because the game needs players to survive. If the game clearly doesn't have enough players, then it gets pulled, and that's it, the games over. It's similar to television showing a Chili's commercial in the middle of your reality show (mmm Chili's). As your scrolling through your news feed, it catches your eye. If you're into playing games (sometimes) this can get you interested. I admit this is how I got into the King games, was seeing it constantly pop up. I had to sit back and wonder "Well, shit, everyone seems to be playing, might as well see what's up." And it's hella fun.

2. Inviting Friends

This one is kind of a toss up for me. But it's the same as my friends telling me 'Hey get Pokemon X/Y' so we can trade Pokemon together!' But much much cheaper. Because Facebook games are free, and Pokemon (+ the 3DS) cost money. SO why was one invite acceptable and one wasn't? Maybe it's because on Facebook you can repeatedly send invites. You can do it in person too I presume but after a while I'd punch you in the face. It boils all back down to exposure and number of players: if the game hopes to stay afloat they need that traffic. But honestly asking if someone wants to play a (free) Facebook Game should not carry more stigma than asking someone to get Halo to play multiplayer. 

3. Real Money
FREE. FACEBOOK GAMES ARE FREE. How much money did it cost for you to download Candy Crush Saga onto your iPad? Oh, was it 0 dollars and 0 cents? With tax? Yes, that's right. It's a free-to-play game. So imagine what it's like being a game company that puts out a game that doesn't cost money to play. How do you make money to pay the people who helped make the game? There's where in-game purchases come in. To some people it's ridiculous, but honestly, to me, it seems completely normal. Here I feel that in-game purchases with real money is similar to buying DLC for a game you own already. How is purchasing power ups in Candy Crush any different than buying the L.A. Noire extra missions to play after you've already beaten it? Or buying items for your XBL avatar? Either way it's real currency used on 1's and 0's no matter how you look at it. And a digital market place is oddly similar to a physical marketplace in that they are almost the exact fucking same thing. Why does it matter how someone chooses to spend money? You might think it's silly that a guy spent $20 on extra lives on a game, but it could be equally ridiculous that you spent $20 on a game expansion pack like Dead Island: Riptide. To each their own.

And can I take a minute and talk about the 'hardcore gamers' who refuse to interact with 'filthy casuals' let alone play the games. Who cares? I enjoy first person shooters. I love RPGS but I'm not very good at them, my forte are Action/Adventure games. And yes, Puzzle games rock, so I found a puzzle game on a pretty easily accessible platform (Facebook) and I will play this game. The lives set up keeps me from playing too long, and the puzzles are new and fun. We all have different tastes in gaming, and god damnit, if I want to spend my time watering imaginary turnips (Is this Farmville? Or Harvest Moon?) then leave me be, you can go on murdering your imaginary aliens/communists.

Oh be still my heart.

 

In the least cheesy way possible I absolutely 100% am in love with this song and the video just makes me so much happier. You ever hear or see something that gives you such a good feeling that it almost hurts? Like....mother fuck. I want this shit in my life.

Am I Just Eating Because I'm Bored

So I have my final Ceramics project coming up. I've decided I want to do a series of multiples, slightly modifying each particular piece. There are three options I've decided I want to try to do, and I have a poll on the right of this blog that you guys can vote on whichever you think is the most interesting/effective/cool/etc.

In no particular order:

• Birds - The Phoenix is a Greek mythological creature (or Harry Potter, depending on your religion) that symbolizes rebirth, fire, the sun, reincarnation, etc. This would be a serious of numerous phoenix-like birds, hung by fishing wire, arranged to ascend upwards.
• Ladybugs - Often represents luck, prosperity, or just good fortune. This would just be a bunch of lady bugs sitting on top of a large leaf, perhaps a few trailing off of the leaf.
• Goldfish - Kamohoalii, the Hawaiian shark god, is said to swim around ships lost at sea and help guide them back to land. This is interesting to me because in Digimon, Gomamon has a move called Marching Fishes in which he summons lots of fish and they often form a net/raft to help the kids (Yeah I just made that reference). This would be a school of goldfish, also hanging from fishing wire, perhaps with one in the lead painted a different color to symbolize Kamohoalii. MAYBE I would add a boat or something above the school of fish, but I'm not sure yet. 

So those are three ideas I have. Any other ideas anyone might have, let me hear them, but also know I can't do a subject 'just because it looks cool'. I have to have some sort of meaning or inspiration behind it. If you guys could vote on the poll on which idea sounds the best I would greatly appreciate it.

Meanwhile I'm having social/emotional issues but I'm not going to talk about them because I've been taking them out on my art, which is convenient and nice. 

Deuces,

Peener